I expected coming out as trans to change my life – but I didn’t think I would be this happy
metro.co.ukbefore coming out I woke up every morning at 0500, wishing I was dead – now all those thoughts are just gone. It’s like gravity has been turned down 20% – everything is that much easier.
I can’t believe cis people walk around feeling like this every day without crying tears of gratitude.But there is also hardship.
Number Two was a friend, a trans woman and a Muslim. ‘I think I’m trans,’ I told her. ‘Every day feels like going to war, it feels like living in the trenches and I just can’t do it anymore.’ ‘Lol,’ she said instantly. ‘Well, being trans is a different kind of war.
But one that’s worthwhile.’She was right.A few close friends and colleagues vanished from my life. I thought they would be on my side, but I was hurt and confused when they abandoned me.
